I had a lot of fun writing this one. Don’t know what that says about me. It is brief. All the action happens over a couple of days and only 2 scenes: apartment and police station. My aim is to keep you a bit confused up to the end.
Always and Forever
“I must be cursed,” I muttered, head in hands, elbows propped on knees. Bryson sat beside me on the sofa. He put his hand on the back of my neck and kneaded lightly.
“Come on, bro. You don’t believe that,” he said softly.
I turned my head to look at him, my eyes red and swollen from crying.
“How else do you explain it? Every girl I like something awful happens to her.”
“Well, you do seem to have rotten luck, but that’s all it is. God ain’t out to get you or any shit like that.” He smiled, but didn’t laugh. The situation was too grave.
“I think someone forgot to tell God.” I had been a wreck all day. I got the call early that morning from Francie that Jenny, my Jenny, my girlfriend Jenny had been killed in a fall from the seventh floor of her dorm. The dorm had outside walkways to the suites with only waist-high railings. I always thought it was kinda unsafe what with how college kids get, but had never heard of anyone actually falling. Until now. Now Jenny. Aw, shit. Here I go again. I can’t stop the tears.
My roommate Bryson is a champ. He’s been sticking close, getting rid of callers and visitors, keeping a bottle of water nearby, handing me Kleenexes. Basically taking care of me. He’s good at that. Always has been. Ever since freshman year. We met when he rescued me from some jocks. They seemed to think it was fun to pick on someone significantly smaller. Bryson jumped in, bumping chests with the leader, called him Shit-For-Brains and basically stood them down. He’s not any bigger than me, but he doesn’t take shit from anyone. He reminded them and they slowly worked out in their lumbering jock way that if they took the time to beat us up, they would probably get in trouble with their coach. We’ve been best friends ever since. We room together, hang together, pledged the same frat together, go places together. People say we even look like brothers. In a way, we are.
“Kev, why don’t you go lie down for a while,” he suggested.
“Yeah,” was all I could muster, and trudged back to my bedroom. It was what, 1 pm? Bryson was right behind me.
“I got a lot of homework to do, so I’ll be in the living room if you need anything. I’ll get us something to eat later. You don’t worry about it.” Yeah, Mr. Take Charge is on duty.
I managed to get some sleep and felt much more human by that evening. Numb, but human.
“Crap, I think I have an Econ quiz tomorrow,” I said, looking at my books for the first time since Friday.
“You aren’t seriously thinking of going to class tomorrow?”
“Dude. You just had a shitstorm all over you. You are in no shape for some dickhead professor’s quiz. I hate to be blunt, but a death in the family is an excused absence. Take it, bro. You need it, whether you think so or not.”
“Jen…” I couldn’t get her name out without choking. “She wasn’t exactly family.”
“Girlfriend, same thing. You guys been together for a couple months. In college that’s like years.”
“I’ll see how I feel in the morning. Right now, I think looking over my Econ notes might keep my mind off other things.” But it didn’t. Saturday night Jenny should have been with me but had texted that she didn’t want to see me. I called but she didn’t answer. I texted I was coming over and she texted that she didn’t want me to. So I sulked around the apartment. And now, this. Shit. I should have gone over.
Monday morning was gray and threatening rain. It was a perfect match for my mood. Bryson was up and puttering around early.
“Dude, you look wasted. Did you even sleep?” he asked.
“Some. I need to get up with Francie. See if she knows if any arrangements have been made. For Jen…Jenny.”
“Oh yeah, she called. Said the police haven’t released her to her family yet. Being pissy about drugs being involved.”
“What? Jenny didn’t do drugs. At least not that I know of,” I said. But I hadn’t thought Marcie was still doing drugs, either.
“Girls do some crazy shit when you ain’t watching ‘em.”
There was a knock at the door. Bryson started for it.
“You want to head back to your room? I’ll get rid of whoever it is.”
“I have to face our friends sometime. I’ll just leave if I feel like falling apart. I think I have that part perfect by now.” I amazed myself that I could say something so flippant.
There were two strangers at the door; a man and a woman. They were dressed in nice suits, nothing fancy, just business attire. Jehovah’s Witnesses I thought? They introduced themselves as Detectives Garza, a short, matronly female and Wilson a taller, tired-looking man. They asked to come in. Bryson didn’t move from the door.
“We’re dealing with a tragedy right now. Come back some other time,” he said.
“Yes, that’s what we’d like to talk to you about,” said Garza. “Are you Kevin Jennings?”
“No, and he’s not seeing visitors right now. He’s had a shock. As I said, maybe later.”
“And you are?” asked Detective Wilson.
“I’m Bryson Johns. This is my place, too.”
“Look, Mr. Johns, here’s the deal,” Detective Wilson said. “We need to talk to Mr. Jennings about a suspicious death and we can do it nice right here, or we can send some uniforms to firmly assist in his presence down at the station. You can pick.”
My skin went cold at the word ‘suspicious’. What the hell?
“Bryson, let them in,” I called to him.
“You sure, bud?”
“Yeah. I need to know what’s going on.”
Detective Garza brushed past Bryson. “Well, Mr. Jennings, we were hoping you could tell us.”
“Me? All I know is what Francie told me.”
“The roommate, Francine McDonald?”
“Why don’t you tell us what you know, beginning with the last time you saw the deceased,” Garza instructed. Well, so much for the pleasantries.
I gasped a little as my throat closed. My Jenny was now ‘the deceased’? I realized I was hyperventilating. Bryson was suddenly there beside me, leading me over to the sofa.
“It’s okay, bro,” he crooned to me softly. “It’s okay. Just breathe slowly.”
Then to the detectives, “You dicks are scaring the crap outta him. Can’t you see how broke up he is?” Bryson said accusingly. He planted himself between me and the detectives. “I have enough pre-law classes to know what you can and cannot do. Now you go easy on him. If you upset him again, this interview is over.” He sometimes goes bulldog when defending me. I always feel so safe when he’s around. I haven’t always surrounded myself with the best of people. But knowing that someone has your back, no matter what, is so comforting and kind of humbling. It’s also kinda great.
The detectives looked sourly at each other, and then Garza nodded. They all sat. Bryson sat on the sofa beside me. The detectives in the two chairs facing us.
“Mr. Jennings. I’m sorry for your loss. I understand this can be a difficult time for you. We just need to find out what you know. Miss Stanton’s family needs closure on this, just like you do,” Detective Garza said, proving that she could play nice when she wanted. “When did you last see Miss Stanton?”
“That was Friday night. We were at a party at my fraternity.”
“Delta Tau Upsilon?”
“I understand you and Miss Stanton seemed to have some kind of disagreement. Can you fill me in on that?”
“What? Oh, it was nothing. She said she thought I was flirting with some other girls.”
“What? No! Jenny is my girl. Was my girl,” I said as my throat closed again. I wiped at the tears. Garza had the decency to wait a moment. Bryson put a hand on my arm. The simple gesture gave me strength.
“Why would she think that you were flirting?”
“I don’t know. She said someone told her to keep an eye on me. Probably one of her bitchy girlfriends. You know how girls are.” Detective Garza’s steely glare indicated that perhaps she did not know how girls are.
“So you didn’t take her home?”
“No, she went with a girlfriend.”
“One of the ‘bitchy’ ones?” Garza asked sarcastically.
“Sorry. I’m just a little frazzled.” Bryson glared at the detectives.
“Easy, detective,” he warned.
“So you didn’t see her last night?” Garza asked.
“No.” I elected to leave out the angry texts.
“Saturday night. Date night. I thought you’d be with ‘your girl’, as you call her.”
“I think she was still pissed about Friday and said she wanted to cool off.”
“Well, she didn’t say why. Just that she didn’t want to see me,” I said huffily.
“So you went to see her, talk some sense into her?” Garza led.
“Did Miss Stanton do drugs?”
“No, not as far as I know.”
“And how far is that?”
“I don’t know. She never mentioned drugs.”
“We got a tox screen,” Detective Wilson interjected. “Seems she was high on acid. She could have flipped right over the rail outside her suite. Seven floors down is a long way to fall. Maybe she thought she could fly.”
“Hey!” Bryson said forcefully. “I done told you, if you can’t be civil you can take your ass outta here.” Wilson bristled, but Garza’s hand on his forearm settled him.
“Yes, she could have fallen accidentally. Or she could have been helped. Her suitemates said they were at a mixer. She stayed home. Alone. They didn’t know about any LSD,” Garza continued.
“So what has that got to do with me? I don’t do drugs.” At least not any more.
“Where were you Saturday night?”
“I told you. Jenny didn’t want to go out so I stayed here.”
“Can anyone vouch for you?”
“I can,” said Bryson.
“Bryson,” I said warningly. “Don’t lie about this. You were at the frat. You tried to get me to go. I just stayed here.”
“Mr. Johns, if you have had all those pre-law classes you would know that lying to a detective is a misdemeanor. Don’t make me take you in.” Bryson just continued glaring.
“I don’t think anyone saw me here, but I was here. I’m innocent until proven otherwise.”
“Interesting turn of phrase, Mr. Jennings. Do you feel guilty about something?
“No, just a figure of speech,” I didn’t like her tone.
“We have a witness who places you at Miss Stanton’s dorm about 8 pm. ME says she fell about 10 pm. Why are you and your friend lying about your location on Saturday evening?”
“Bryson was just trying to be helpful in his own clumsy way. But I’m not lying. I was here. Anyone who says different is lying.”
Garza stood up abruptly. “I think that’s all we need for now. We’ll be in touch if we have more questions. I know you college kids have restless feet, so please notify the police if you plan to leave town. Good day.” They showed themselves out as Bryson and I sat on the sofa stunned.
“Dude. They think you did it. We need a lawyer.”
I was a basket case. On top of losing my girlfriend, now the cops think I killed her. How do things like this happen? Thank God I had Bryson. He called my parents when I asked him to. I was too freaked out to talk to them. They said they were calling a lawyer they knew and he’d help me. Mom stressed that I not talk to the police without him present. And the standard parent lines – Don’t worry. Everything’s going to be okay. We love you.
I went back to classes on Tuesday, for what it’s worth. In three classes I took exactly zero notes. I have no idea what the professors said. I’m not even sure I was in the right classes. Nothing makes sense right now. This is going to play hell with my grade point average. I guess your GPA doesn’t matter too much in prison. Shit. This is serious. I’m so fucking scared.
Detective Garza contacted me late Tuesday and invited me down to the police station “to fill in some gaps.” I told her I’d come in Wednesday if my lawyer could schedule it.
“Lawyer? You have something to hide, Mr. Jennings?”
“No, but you and your friend seem to have painted a bull’s eye on my back. I’m just making sure you play by the rules.” I was amazed my voice held steady long enough to say all that.
“Whoa, dude. That rocked!” Bryson exclaimed after I hung up. “Show ‘em you got balls.”
My folks’ lawyer friend, Mr. Fallon, had an office in town and he set aside time for us to talk and then said he’d meet me at the police station. He was very reassuring. He said that so far all they had was “supposition and innuendo”. “That and five bucks might get you a latte at Starbucks,” he joked. I felt so much better. Then I told him everything and his demeanor changed. He became grave.
“I’m glad you told me. They are sure to find out and use this against you. I’ll do what I can to get ahead of it, but it looks bad. Still, no smoking gun. Garza’s a bulldog, but she’s fair. Wilson is a piece of shit.”
I pictured the worst from all the tv cop shows, but I wasn’t put in an “interrogation room”, or cuffed to a table or anything. We met in a relatively attractive, comfortable office. Mr. Fallon was at my side and reminded me I didn’t have to answer anything I didn’t want to and to look to him if I had a question.
Garza led with her ace.
“Mr. Jennings. Did you ever know a Marcie Gray?”
“You are aware that Miss Gray is deceased?”
“Of course I am.” What are you, stupid? I said in my mind.
“In what way did you know Miss Gray?”
“She was my girlfriend during sophomore year.”
“And you know how she died?”
“I object to you baiting my client, Garza. You have the record, you know exactly what he knows.”
“Just trying to get it in the record for this case. She died of a bad reaction to poisoned street drugs. Seems she got hold of some speed with a high strychnine content. Isn’t it coincidental that both your girlfriends died from drug-related causes?”
“That’s not a legitimate question, Garza. And the record shows my client was in no way involved in his friend’s drug use. He didn’t know she was using and definitely wasn’t her supplier.” Except I did know she was using and I knew her supplier. I just thought she had stopped.
“So he says. It’s just the old smoke and fire adage. But let’s move on. Do you know a Laurie Lee? I believe you called her Spooky Lee?”
“I didn’t call her that. At least not to her face. She was Marcie’s roommate. She was weird. Everyone called her Spooky. She moved in with Darlene after Marcie died.”
“Yes, I see that here. It seems that Miss Lee and Darlene Massey didn’t care much for you. They said you were abrasive, argumentative, made threats and hit Miss Gray.”
“That’s a lie! I never hit Marcie. I’ve never hit any woman. Spooky and Darlene were a couple of bitches. They did everything they could to turn Marcie against me. Then they told lies about me.” The arguments I had with Marcie were mainly about those two bitches.
“Now why would those nice girls say such bad things about you? What did you ever do to them?”
“Nothing. They just couldn’t stand that Marcie didn’t have time for them when she was seeing me. They wanted her all to themselves.”
“Yes, and you and Marcie fought about that, didn’t you?”
“Hold on, Garza,” Mr. Fallon said. “What are you getting at?”
“I’m just establishing that your client has a problem controlling his anger issues around women.”
“What anger issues!?” I exclaimed.
“Garza, we’re here as a courtesy. We’re not going to help you go on some fishing expedition.”
“What anger issues?” I asked again.
Garza continued. “Isn’t it true that you have a prescription for Ativan to control your violent tendencies?”
“What? No! It’s for agitation and impulsivity. I have trouble concentrating sometimes. That’s all. Why are you trying to make me sound like some kind of lunatic?”
“Yes, impulsive actions like helping someone fall from the seventh floor, or adding strychnine to speed, or sending dead flowers and a chopped up doll?”
“We’re done here,” said Mr. Fallon, disgust dripping from his voice. “Come on, Kevin.”
“Wait a minute,” I said. “What dead flowers? What chopped up doll? That’s crazy stuff. Hold on, Mr. Fallon. I want to know what they’re talking about.”
“I’m talking about Paula Warren. Recognize the name, Mr. Jennings?” My stomach dropped.
“What? What’s happened to Paula?”
“Why should you care? I believe when you broke up she called you a ‘monster’ and to leave her alone. Paula seems to be one of the lucky ones. She withdrew from school before someone could kill her.”
“I didn’t know she withdrew,” I said. I really didn’t. I had dated Paula briefly during my junior year. She said something about harassing phone calls and noises outside her apartment. I slept over a few times to check but nothing happened. I mean, no harassing calls or prowlers. Then she said she thought it was me doing it. Someone was feeding her lies.
“Well what did you expect after you sent her a box of dead flowers and the next day a box with a doll chopped up into bits. A doll with blond hair just like Miss Warren. Of course she left. For her own safety.”
“What? I never did that. That’s sick.”
“Well, the UPS guy picked your picture as the guy who sent it.”
“But that’s impossible. I never did anything like that.”
“Then, there is Susan Cummings.” The nightmare seemed never ending.
Garza continued. “You dated her after Miss Warren. We have a statement from her that you seemed mentally unbalanced and she was afraid of you.”
“I don’t know what was going on with Susan. She said someone was stalking her and leaving threatening messages on her phone. She said someone called and told her I was crazy and would hurt her. I wouldn’t hurt her. I’ve never hurt anyone. Why is this happening to me?”
“Well, look at it from my perspective,” Garza began reasonably, too reasonably. “I have four girls here, two dead and two terrified. And the common denominator is you. What am I supposed to do with that?”
My first thought on what she could do with that probably wouldn’t help my case so I went with my second thought.
“I’m being set up. Someone is trying to ruin my life.”
“Now what makes you so important that someone would go to all this trouble to ruin you? Doesn’t really make sense, does it?” Garza just looked at me.
“It’s that Spooky bitch. She’s behind it. She told me she would get me one day. Said she wouldn’t rest until everyone knew what a monster I was. Monster. That’s it. Both Paula and Susan said someone told them I was a monster. It’s not exactly the most common word. It must have been Spooky. I’ve seen her slithering around campus lately, turning up where I am, like she’s stalking me.”
“And why would Miss Lee think you’re a monster?”
“Um, because I took Marcie away from her. She was very possessive. She hated me for taking Marcie. I don’t know. She’s crazy. She probably blames me for Marcie’s death. If she’s the one who told you I was at Jenny’s on Saturday you can forget it. She’s out to get me.”
“Yes, I’m sure we’ll be talking to Miss Lee. Now are there any other girlfriends, dead or alive, that we should know about?”
“Not funny. Not at all.” I glared at her. Mr. Fallon put his arm around me and escorted me from the police station.
“So according to your lawyer, they got nothing on you?” Bryson asked.
“Yeah. Put together it all looks bad, but there’s not enough facts there to hold it together.” I was still freaked by my interview with the police but starting to calm a bit.
“Unless they find more evidence,” he cautioned.
“No. There is no more evidence. I didn’t do anything. It shouldn’t have gone as far as it already has.”
“Hey, man. Not to scare you, but police plant evidence all the time. It saw a tv show about it. They could come in right now and claim they found a kilo of cocaine and lock your ass up forever.”
“I’d just tell ‘em it was yours.”
“After all I done for you, you’d rat me out like that?” he asked, acting mortally wounded.
“In a heartbeat.”
He did have a point. I don’t think Detective Garza would plant evidence. Hell knows what Detective Wilson would do. Mostly he just sits in and glowers at me. He’s got Bad Cop down pat. Garza’s Good Cop could use some work.
“It’s that Spooky bitch who’s the problem. I bet she set the whole thing up.”
“Who’s spooky?” Bryson looked bewildered.
“That crazy girl who was Marcie’s roommate. She hated me.”
“Oh, yeah. The crazy one. I remember her.”
“The cops are going to talk to her. I’m sure she doesn’t know about you or she’d have the cops all over us by now.”
“You sure about that?”
“Pretty sure. She hates my guts. She knew I introduced Marcie to a dealer. She just never knew who. Marcie was smart enough not to tell her.”
“You don’t blame me, do you? I mean, you know I didn’t try to hurt anyone?”
“Bry, we’ve been through this. I hated you for a while. I know I accused you of killing Marcie. But I saw how it affected you. You couldn’t have known you had a bad batch. That was your source’s fault. We all took our chances using street drugs. And if anything good could come from such a fuck up, at least it made you turn your life around and me stop using.”
“Yeah. At least I was low level enough that they just beat me up and said there’d be worse if I ever opened my mouth. Piece of cake.”
“I watched you, Bry. What happened with Marcie almost killed you. You blamed yourself. You didn’t even argue with me when I blamed you. You were in a very dark place. As much as I liked Marcie, it hurt me more to see you in such pain.’
“But you pulled me through, bro.”
“Hey, that’s what bros do.”
“I do remember her and that Darlene chick, with the white painted face and all the black clothes and shit. A real freak show.”
“Yeah? You know she thought you were pretty hot.”
“Oh, don’t tell me stuff like that. There are some things you can’t unhear. She was the spooky one, you ask me. What’d Marcie ever see in them anyway?”
“You get thrown together freshman year, make friends, and it sticks. Look at us. Except for the fact that you are apparently hot to Goth chicks I don’t know what I see in you.”
“Same at you, asshole. But you know that’s not true. We have something special. This strange connection. I felt it the first time I saw you. We’re a good team.”
“Yeah, it’s weird how it just happens. What are the odds of finding someone who can get as close as we are.”
“That’s what Marcie said. That we’re good for each other. That we look out for each other. She’s the only girlfriend you had that I ever really liked. The others didn’t stack up. Paula and Susan were no way good enough for you. Well, I kinda liked Jenny. But you two were getting way too serious. Sometimes it felt like you were leaving me. It’s me and you, bro. We’re bonded. We belong together. I’m no homo but you know it’s always bros before hos. It’s us against them. We’re like Butch and Sundance, or Thelma and Louise on testosterone.”
“As I recall, those didn’t end too well.”
“Well, you know I’d take a bullet for you, bud.”
“Yeah, I believe you actually would.” I suddenly noticed a tear roll down his face.
“What’s this? What’s wrong,” I asked with concern. Bryson never cried.
“I fucked up. I fucked it all up.” More tears streamed out.
“No man, nothing’s fucked up. We’re good.” I didn’t know what he was talking about.
“Yes, I did. I didn’t mean to. I just got so scared.” He was literally sobbing now.
“Come on, dude. Let’s talk about it. You’ll feel better.”
“I can’t. You’ll hate me. I can’t live if you hate me.”
Something was really going on with him. I went over to the sofa and sat beside him and put an arm around his shoulder.
“Hey, you’re my brother, remember. Always and forever. Nothing’s going to make me hate you.”
“I love you, man. You’re my other half,” he said mournfully.
“I love you , too. Always.” He had his face against my shoulder, still crying pitifully.
“I didn’t mean it.”
“All the nasty shit I said about you. It was just to make them go away.”
“What nasty shit?”
“I told Paula and Susan you were crazy. A real whack job and you might attack them. I told Jenny, too. I don’t think she believed me, though.”
I sat up pushing his face off my shoulder.
“Bryson. What are you talking about?”
“Those girls. They weren’t good enough for you. And they were coming between us. I couldn’t let them take you away from me. I need you. You complete me. You belong to me.”
“Oh shit, Bryson. What did you do?”
“Nothing much. Susan was easy. I scared her a little with some phone calls and scratching around her condo. Once she thought it was you, she left. Paula was harder. I ended up sending her some stupid stuff, dead flowers, cut up doll. It scared her real good.” I watched as he told me this and his face lightened as if he was enjoying the memory. Then his face crumpled again.
“I didn’t want to hurt her,” he said through renewed tears. “She made me.”
“Hurt who?” I asked, but was afraid I knew the answer.
“Jenny,” he said in a small voice. Oh fuck. Is he saying he killed Jenny? Oh fuck, oh fuck.
“She called me to come see her that night. I won’t at the frat party. Oh, I’m so sorry. Please don’t hate me.”
“Just tell me what happened, Bryson. Please.” I said it as evenly as I could.
“She was mad as hell. She said she knew I’d been dicking with her, trying to scare her. She said our attachment was unnatural. She said she was going to tell you what I was doing and you’d hate me forever. I couldn’t stand that. I love you. You belong with me.” He curled in on himself, sobbing.
“Go on, Bry. Get it all out.” The tears were now flowing down my face also.
“We fought. When I knocked her down she hit her head on something and it knocked her out. I know I did wrong but I was so scared. I fucked up. I fucked up because I thought I was gonna lose you. I had a tab of acid on me. I still deal a little. I didn’t tell you because I knew you hated it. I put it under her tongue and tied her up with her sheet. Once she was tripping we went outside on the balcony. I told her she could fly while on acid. She wanted to try.”
“Oh my God, Bryson.” I couldn’t come out with any more than that.
“It hurt so bad to do that. It was even worse with Marcie. I hated dosing her. It liked to have killed me to do her like that. But she was taking you away. You hate me now, don’t you.” He didn’t make it a question. He knew.
“I fucked up so bad. If they take you then we can’t be together. If they take me we won’t be together. There ain’t but one way out.”
He slipped his hand down between the sofa cushions and pulled out a pistol.
“Shit, Bryson, put that thing down before you hurt someone. Where’d you get it anyway?”
“I’ve had it a long time. Just in case. We can really be together like this. A suicide pact. It will solve all our problems. We’ll be together forever.”
“Yeah, I want to be with you bud, but we’ve still got a lot of living to do. There’s so much we haven’t done yet,” I babbled, playing for time.
“I’m sorry, Kev. I fucked that up. We got no future. I guess we really are Thelma and Louise.”
Suddenly the door burst open and Detective Garza and Detective Wilson charged in, weapons drawn.
“Bryson Johns, drop the weapon!” she shouted.
Bryson looked at her and fired at her. The shot hit her in the chest and she actually flew a few feet backward from the impact. Before she had landed Detective Wilson unloaded three shots into Bryson’s chest. He got a surprised look on his face and dropped the pistol. Wilson raced up and kicked it away. He looked back to Garza and she shouted “I’m alright.”
I grabbed Bryson and cradled him against my chest, sobbing harder than ever. He smiled and whispered, “Hey bro, you do still love me, don’t you?”
“Of course. Just me and you, dude. Always and forever.”
“I’ll be waiting. I know you’ll find me. You belong to me.”
Detective Garza filled me in the next day on all that had happened. Spooky Lee was actually working with the police. She had told them I had connected Marcie with a drug dealer and they’d been watching me to try to find him. They knew that I did not go out the night Jenny was killed. One break came from my saying that Bryson was at the fraternity party. They checked and no one seemed to see him there. They finally managed to find a cam shot of a person entering Jenny’s dorm who had no business there – Bryson. At the interview at my apartment Detective Garza noted how similar both Bryson and I looked. She got a picture of Bryson and took it to UPS and the clerk immediately identified him. He had been a bit iffy on the picture of me. The girl who said she saw me at Jenny’s dorm also identified the picture of Bryson. She later said she just assumed it was me because I was always there. From leads from another investigation Detective Garza had figured out that Bryson was the dealer who supplied Marcie. As she looked into Bryson’s past she found he had a sealed juvie record. She had to get a court order to open it. Once she saw it she called in all units and raced to our apartment. Bryson had been treated as an adolescent for antisocial and sociopathic behaviors. He became obsessed with people or things and ended up destroying them. He lied without remorse and showed no empathy. Just as she arrived outside our apartment the surveillance team watching through a part in the curtains saw Bryson draw the gun. She said she was just thankful that she had taken the time to put on her Kevlar vest.
I’ve tried to put this behind me. I’ve spent umpteen hours on my therapist’s couch crying my eyes out. I think I’ve shed enough tears to float a battleship. If getting the emotion out that way is effective then I’m well on the way to being cured. I’ve been thinking a lot about Bryson. I knew he was clingy, but had no idea he was so sick. Am I that naïve or was he just that good at it? I’ve read up on his particular pathology and saw a lot of parallels. It’s kind of eerie looking at it in hindsight. But I think they got one thing wrong. They said he showed no remorse or empathy. I believe he did. I think in the end he was sorry for how he had ‘fucked up’ as he put it. And obsessive or not, I’m pretty damn sure that he did love me. With all his warped heart. And I’ll try to remember him like that. My best bud. Always and forever.
I remember getting the idea for this story. I had just written a memoir piece from when I was in college (I’ll post it later). I was driving to dance practice and thinking I should do another piece set in college. For some reason obsessive couples came to mind. Guys who won’t let a girl go or vice versa. That’s been done to death, though. Then I thought about an issue I knew where a woman didn’t want to let her female friend go. Nothing sexual, just strong emotional attachment. I wondered what if that happened with a couple of guys. By the time I got to practice I had the characters of Bryson and Kevin created. On the way home I let the story play out in my head. This is what came out.